urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:phuck_may phuck_may phuck_may 2008-04-19T00:40:23Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:phuck_may:3036 2008-04-19T00:40:23Z 2008-04-19T00:40:23Z i just came home from piano. actually i came home 20 minutes ago but i sat outside for 10 minutes crying. i didn't want my mom to know i was crying. <br /><br />the piano teacher told me how frustrating it was to play with me. how much of a drag and pain i was. and i know i am slacking off so much... it's my fault. i have no excuse besides the fact that i just don't enjoy playing the piano.<br /><br />i felt so useless though. so hurt. everything... i haven't been able to achieve anything. i felt like a fat loser with nothing to even be proud of. i still feel like it.<br /><br />so that's why i have my goals.<br /><b>GOAL 1</b> lose weight and get to 103 pounds.<br />-lose about 16 pounds in... 11 days. GET TO 135 BY APRIL 29!<br />-run and exercise more often<br />-WATCH WHAT I EAT<br /><b>GOAL 2</b> not suck at piano.<br />-learn the song and play it well BY MAY 9<br /><b>GOAL 3</b> ace school<br />-get all A's and 4's and 5's on the AP tests<br /><b>GOAL 4</b> own at tennis<br />-WIN MY MATCHES<br />-get to the top court of tennis legitimately<br /><b>GOAL 5</b> get good at guitar<br />-learn how to play canon rock<br />-learn how to BE SWEET<br /><br /><br />those are my goals... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:phuck_may:2784 2008-04-06T17:04:40Z 2008-04-06T17:04:40Z <a href="http://www.3fatchicks.com/"><img src="http://www.3fatchicks.net/img/heartbar/cartoonbear01/lb/156/103/151/.png" border="0"></a>